My name is Harold. I am 51 years old, not sure if this is the right place to post this, but I have been looking at this site for a few days and I am wondering if I could have Asperger's?
I have had problems most of my life. Most don't seem like everyday things, for the most part. Sometimes I just don't think right, trying to save time or help someone and mess things up, and other times I have what I have called "panic attacks" where my mind just goes blank in stressful times. I have a lot of trouble explaining things to others. Most of the time, the other person has no idea what I said and does the opposite of what I said, this has happened with a lot of people so it can't be "them". I have been unable to hold jobs where a person is required to learn new tasks over time. I would ask to be put back in the job I was doing before and was always told that was entry level and I could not go back. I am now in a job that stays the same for the most part, but still have problems when "out of the ordinary" things happen.
I also lost my family a few years ago. My ex wife and two grown children kicked me out of their lives and disappeared from me to a point. I know they are O.K. from family and friends they are still in contact with, but I have no answers to why other than they saw me as a horrible person.